What has Happened!

As of 26th May 2024, The day I started writing this post.

My last post on this blog was published on July 23rd, 2020 when COVID-19 struck the world. 

I was on a roll then, trying to make reading books, the best hobby of mine. Of course, I was at the beginning only though. But I was in a flow, as Cal Newport talks in his book "Deep Work". I achieved my goal of reading one book a month for a year. I was happy that I was able to achieve it. 

Then, just like any human, I slacked off. Now I wonder, what happened to that girl? 

Well, in February of 2021, I joined my first job ever. This was a big change in my life. I had to move away from my home to a very new world. It was all new, new place, new people, new home, new experience. This was the foundation of the adult I would become then. The person, who I am now.

In this process, not complaining, I have lost the habit of reading. Again!

I forgot about it. The first year of the job took me in all ways because this was a dream come true. I spent my entire time taking in all the experience I could, learning the ways of people in this part of the world. And yeah, 2021 went by like that, with new people, environment, adjustments, friends, work, life. It marked the beginning of an era for me.

Little did I notice that with this new beginning, I had left a piece of me behind whom I would have cherished forever. This was the most important piece of the puzzle of my life. That was the one who's gonna make me, ME!

The girl was curious and passionate about her life. She was building herself up. She was doing all the things she loved. She started reading. She was writing. She was so focused on building herself up. As I said above, she was on a roll!

Three years down the lane, now, this is me trying to get back to being her. It isn't easy to get back on track. I feel like, the girl who once lived inside me is calling me back. 

She is telling me to stop and breathe once...

She is telling me to hold on and look around once...

She is telling me to reassess myself...

I wonder if, maybe she's saying that I forgot myself. Now that I realize this, I obviously cannot go back but I get this thing in the back of my mind now that, I can hold the hand, of this girl in the past and move hand in hand now. I can start anew with this fresh perspective.

To the new beginnings...